DayDreaming Diva

This week is my last week of classes as an undergraduate student....wow. I want to take a few moments to reflect and document some of my thoughts during this last week.  I am having conflicting emotions over this fact. On one hand I am SO over school and am SO ready to be done and move on to the next chapter of my life. But on the other hand I am not ready to be done and go out into the real "real world". My college experience has been absolutely amazing. I have been blessed with getting to know and become roommates and best friends with three wonderful girls. I have learned so much about myself, I have grown in my faith and gained a deeper understanding and love for God. I have gained a greater appreciation for family and understand how important support from family means to a individual. I have been fortunate (yes, you read that correctly) to study, read, and write many papers that have expanded my knowledge. Despite my frequent complaints, I have been truly blessed wit...

School is stressful, relationships are stressful, work is stressful...life is stressful. I have typically not been very good at coping with stress. When I get stressed, I tend to push my feelings and emotions aside in order to get things accomplished. This causes my emotions to build up inside until they explode at very inconvenient times. In a way this can be a good thing, the fact that I am able to avoid thinking about certain things and avoid reacting  emotionally as some people would. However, like I said, I tend to push the emotions away and then deal with them at inappropriate times or take them out on people that are not deserving. Typically when I am overwhelmed I will eat. I don’t know why but when something is bothering me I feel like I have to have food in my mouth. I also have a tendency to go shopping and spend money on things I don’t necessarily need. I used to do this all of the time. If I had a stressful day at work I would swing by Target and just go crazy. T...

"Sometimes He calms the storm...other times He calms the child..." When I was young girl I used to be terrified of storms. I was afraid that my family and I would be hurt and that my house and all of my sentimental belongings would be destroyed. What really frightened me was the unpredictability of the storm. I like to be in control, I like to know what's going on and what is going to happen in the future. You can imagine what being in the middle of an unpredictable storm was like for me...not good. ...And this is why I was so terrified I remember my mother always telling me and sometimes singing to me the lyrics of a popular christian song, "Sometimes He calms the storm...other times He calms the child..." When she first said this to me I didn't find much comfort in it... I thought "Mama..really?? That is not very helpful..You must not know how scary this is for me?" I would pray that God would stop the storms because I was so afraid of ...

My life has been turned upside down for the past week and a half. Seriously I have been like a whirlwind running from place to place, never stopping or slowing down. I have been exhausted and have been feeling so off balance in every aspect. Between trying to get school work done, Lyceum requirements, work, housework, and visiting loved ones I have been a running around like a chicken with my head chopped off. Saturday, I took some time to reclaim order in my life. I worked out for the first time in over a week. Whoowee... that was rough! I really did not want to. But I talked myself into it. I feel soooo much better about myself and I had a ton more energy, now if I only I could remember this feeling when I wake up at 5:00am to exercise!! I also cleaned out my car (which was a MESS!), cleaned my room, the bathroom, did some laundry, made plans for the week, and organized some of my crazy mess. Man, I feel so much better now! I like order and I like for things to be in there...