DayDreaming Diva

Sometimes, when I am overwhelmed by the chaos that is motherhood. The screaming teething baby, the four year old who has all of the questions, the floor that needs to be mopped AGAIN…I whisk myself away into this lie of thinking “If I could only have the quiet back…”. What a lie...   I am a self proclaimed introvert. I love being by myself. I enjoy the quiet.  I  like not having the pressure to “perform” for anyone. I have always preferred nights on the couch, by myself with a bowl of pasta and a good movie rather than going out and being with people. So motherhood for me, especially lately, has been overwhelming... to say the least. But oh man has it brought me closer to my Jesus.   Since September we, as a family of four, have been hit with one sickness after another. RSV, Flu, ear infections, unknown viruses, more ear infections, and the latest being COVID. We have been faced with some difficult decisions as a result of that sickness and through prayer and relying on The Lord we hav

So, my life has always been somewhat crazy but the past year to year and a half has been a real whirlwind. In August, before we got married I started attending Graduate School to become a School Psychologist. I was certain that this was the path that I needed to walk down. I loved what I was doing in the beginning, it was fun and exciting and I was getting to really help children. Late in the fall I started to feel overwhelmed. I started the semester working full time as a teacher, driving an hour and a half to school and back three times a week, and trying to be a newlywed. I cut back my hours at work so that I was working only part time thinking it would solve my problems but it didn't. I got sick that Christmas, like I normally do in the winter but somehow it seemed different than normal. The spring semester started off well, I attended a conference in Columbia for free, which was exciting. However, things quickly went downhill I became even more stressed juggling school, wo

For a while now I have been wanting to publicly share my fitness journey but felt uncomfortable with putting it on Facebook. Now that I have a blog, I think it is the perfect time and place to share! I am so passionate about healthy eating and exercising and I tell people every chance I get everything I have learned on this journey. I have tried to make this as brief as possible but there is so much that I feel is important about my journey... Check out those scrawny legs! As a young girl I was always very skinny and taller than everyone else in my class. I was such a picky eater when I was little and my brother and I were always active. Sometime in my middle school days I stopped growing. Seriously, if I wanted to I could wear a girl's XL, I'm often tempted to buy girl's clothing because they have THE cutest stuff and it is so much cheaper than adult clothing! Anyway... I stopped growing but my appetite didn't! I ate all. of. the. time. I would eat breakfast-

Before I got pregnant, I heard women talk about the miserable-ness of it all but I also heard a lot about how wonderful it was. Yeah, those women that have nothing but wonderful experiences... I don't have anything nice to say to you. I am just kidding, I have to have some humor about all of this or I would literally go insane! I was talking with my lung doctor and after I picked him up off the floor from him laughing so much at my appearance (for some reason I am a really funny looking pregnant woman, everyone gets a kick out of it), he told me "You women that have children really are saints, us men could not do. We could get knocked out and punched around but have a baby, forget it!" Pregnancy really is all about endurance. There are so many changes that a woman's body goes through over the course of nine months and we literally just have to sit back and let it happen. It's all worth it for the end result but in the process it's not always fun. I am hon

Week 487993 Finally, the home stretch!! Hallelujah! Sing His praises!  Before I got pregnant I remember thinking, "I hope I'm not one of those women that you can't ever tell that they're pregnant."...HAH!   Symptoms: Pain. Braxton Hicks. Nesting. Stretch marks. Itching. Nausea. Vomiting. Exhaustion. Forgetfulness. Did I miss anything? I am really feeling pregnant now. Weight: I'm just going to say it +70. I'm not proud of it but that's the number. Cravings: I have had this thing about milk lately, especially chocolate milk. Once again not really a "craving" just like "I could really go for a glass of milk" kind of thing. Aversions: NONE!! Gender: Sweet Boy Movement:  A whole lot of kicking, squirming, and dancing going on! Sleep:  What is sleep??? Favorite moment during these weeks: Baby showers! Questions:So the itching and the rash went away but then the itching came back but the rash didn't

Week 32/33 Week 31/32 Week 33/34 I have really been slacking on pictures lately. For a few reasons, one I honestly keep forgetting! I know it's terrible but the end of the week comes and I think "Oh man, I haven't documented". There really isn't that much change from week to week now which is another reason why I haven't been so adamant about it. I also really don't enjoy taking pictures right now so it's not really fun for me like it used to be. Symptoms: pressure, pressure, pressure! I am now really wishing I would have continued working out because I am HEAVY and uncomfortable and I know that part of it is because I've gained so much weight and lost so much muscle. So. Much. Swelling. Everywhere. It's in my hands, feet, face, fingers, everywhere.  My skin is SO itchy, like everywhere, I just want to claw my skin all the time! Weight: let's not talk about it... Cravings: I always feel so weird because I have n